As she walked by the lake, she fought back her tears. She had been fighting them for a few weeks by this point. Each time tears arrived at the surface of her eyes, she sent them back. She would not cry. She could not cry.
Today, she found it harder to fight them back, yet she still tried. For half of her walk, she managed. Then, she abruptly sat on the ground, covered her face and started crying loudly. She had lost the battle. She had cried.
People looked at her as they passed, with some coming up and asking her if she was ok. Obviously, she did not look ok but she contradicted her look and said she was so that people would leave. She was a strong girl, she did not need anyone. She had lived on these premises her whole life and she would do the same now. Crying was weak and so was getting help. She could handle both.
Yet, she failed to stop crying. She started feeling weaker to the point that whenever she tried getting up, she fell back. Some people now helped her even without asking, forcefully. Or maybe they were not forceful but she was too weak to fight them. She just agreed and walked with their help. They made her sit on a bench nearby and gave her some water. She felt better.
After 20 minutes, these people were still waiting to check if she was doing ok. She lifted her head up and smiled. A soft ‘Thank you’ came out of her mouth. As she said that, she was also thinking that maybe she was not that strong after all. It was all an act. Maybe, her life was all an act.
To Write or not to Write and What to Write 
The question then becomes, how much is a performance and how much is sincerity?
Do you want to be an actor or a performer?
Are you putting on a show or are you living life’s lessons?
Ultimately the choice is up to each individual journey maker. Most people just don’t care enough to make a choice for themselves and end up getting backlogged into the “don’t care what happens to me” kind of lifestyle, deeply desiring something better around every corner but never doing the work to actually open the box to see the precious gift that was perfectly presented if only viewed through the correct lens.
The next question becomes – how many miracles are missed while people are busy putting on a show for a life they don’t care two sh*ts about living to the fullest?
LikeLiked by 3 people
Those are awesome points! I sure have fallen into that trap. Not doing enough but expecting things to improve. Maybe we tire ourselves more than we should and then we lose the energy to do what we actually need to do.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I think we are living in a world that has created the mindset that we must be going, going, going to paint the illusion that happiness is real. But in reality all the going, is leaving behind all the happiness that sits waiting in every moment to be enjoyed and experienced if people but gave themselves the time of day to do something that isn’t questing for the illusive “more”.
More money. More notoriety. More likes. More favor. More power. More, more, more
But never ever do they worry about Enough. But Enough is where it is at because once you have enough, what more do you need?
LikeLiked by 1 person
Wow, could’t have said it better. I was/am definitely caught up in that rush, and I am realizing its harms more and more each day. May we all recover from this illness of always wanting more!
LikeLiked by 1 person
May your prayers be granted and your hopes be realized! For GREED is an ugly word. So I made it to mean Something Beautiful
Gratefully
Receiving
Everything
Everyone
Desires
This way we all know that we come packaged with Greed but rather than hating ourselves for a natural part of our human nature, we can turn our nature towards being appreciative of the bounty of gifts that exist in this every moment.
So much glory on High to the Power that Be that makes this world a Blessed Possibility. For what is more wonderful than this beautiful awakening for which we all get to see?
LikeLiked by 1 person
Lovely… and Amen
LikeLiked by 1 person
On a different note, you mentioned you are noticing how the it harms more and more each day. Imagine having lived a life filled with that same progressively worsening feeling, the entirety of your existence painted with the perception of being harmed. Imagine how miserable that must be. Imagine how unfulfilled you’d be at the End of Your Days.
Now don’t let yourself be that sad tale and go about properly motivating yourself to feel better in the moment you were made to feel the best ever in. You can do it. I’m the laziest person around and I managed to find the strength of determination needed to be happy. All it takes is a drop of Faith and an Blip of Pure Passion – combined together you get an Explosion of Euphoric Energy that propels you to live life to the fullest.
The first step is learning to pause and take in the moment for what it is before rushing headfirst through your moments never considering what they held for you and what you let slip by. Let the energy build before you go and expend it all rushing to the next moment.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I love this all! I will keep all in mind and hope that I can proceed.
LikeLike
Very nice story! I’ve definitely done my share of acting. Haha. But you have to get back to reality every now and then. At least, people say you do. Ha.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you! Yeah, they say that I know…
LikeLiked by 1 person