He knew about the human mind more than most others did. He had studied neurology, mood disorders, neuroplasticity and most recently mindfulness. Surely, not everyone studies these topics. And yet, he needed to fill a part of him that felt a bit empty. A part which all this knowledge had failed to reach.
He was sitting in front of his screen with empty eyes, trying to search for ways to fill the void. He was not hopeful he would find something he would like, given that he had failed every time he tried so far. Well, no surprise there, the search was not giving satisfying results today either. Why would it, right? Everything had to go against him anyways.
He gave up the search, laid on his bed and closed his eyes. After a while, his phone vibrated. He looked at it and saw a text from a friend. He was asking if he would like to go to a meditation program for ten days. He had studied meditation and practiced it too. But ten days? That was too much. He said no. But his friend was the answer of the universe to his search. So, he convinced him to join. He still does not know how he was convinced but all he knew the next day was that he was on the road.
The trip to the center was accompanied by the falling leaves of fall. As he looked out the window in the car, he thought all that had happened to him in 2012 so far. He had experienced a lot of ups and downs. It had not been an easy year for sure but he had learnt a lot. He had good expectations from this new experience too and he knew he would learn even more. But it was also scary. At some point, this scare became too overwhelming for him, so he got out to get some fresh air in. He calmed down as the cool breeze of the fall touched him. He took a few breaths and walked back in the car. There were only ten minutes left.
The arrival to the center was less dramatic than he thought. He was expecting to see people walking around and maybe even greet him, yet there was no one. He walked into what looked like a haunted house. Someone greeted him there and took him to his room. He dropped his luggage and sat on the bed. All he had to do now was wait for tomorrow.
So he did.
[to be continued]